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ana fatat 3omri 18 sana adroso btanawiya 9isati tabtadi2o yawm jaani itiisal hatifi min ra9m lam a3rifho ajabt fakana itissal 3an darik lkhata2 a9falt lkhat walam o3irho ihtimam wafi lmasae ja2ani itissal akhar kan nafss chakhs 9ala inaho a7ab sawti watari9ata ta3amoli wa arada ta3arofa 3alaya 9olto laho ana la wa lan takouna li 3ala9a ma3a chab wa arfodo lfikra tamaman, talaba mini ana nalta9i linatakalama birahatina wa law mara wahida wafa9to akhiran biso3ouba wa a3taytoho nisf sa3a min wa9ti lianaho kana ladaya darss b tanawiya. ilta9ayna kana chaban wasiman watalaba mini an yousilani fi tari9ihi ila tanawiya linatahadata limoda atwal ,ok wafa9t wa3arafani bnafsih inaho chab 28 sana ladayhi wikala likira2 sayarat bimadina 9ariba jidan min lmadina alati naskono biha wahakada takalamna 3an ma nohiboho wa ma la nohiboho .....
ba3da wousoulina ila tanawiya dahabto ana liahdora darss wadahaba howa lihalih itafa9na an nokmila haditana bilhatif bi layl...la adono anani istafadto dalika lyawm min darss liana toula lhissa konto ofakiro fih waokariro ma9alaho li wa atakhayal wajhaho wa wa wa ...robama lianaho awal chab alta9i bihi fi hayati li anani fatate mohafida walam a3rif chabab min 9abl wa3tarifo anaho a3jabani 7a9an . ba3da dalika lyawm bada2a yatasilo bi katiran waya7ki li kayfa mara yawmoho wa ana bidawri a9oulo laho kol ma 3ichtohi dalika lyawn ila an talaba mini data yawm an nalta9i mara okhra lam ataradad dahabto lialta9i bihi honak 9ala li saa3tarifo laki bchay2 mohim 9olto mada 9ala ba3da taradode ana rajol moutazawij waladaya tifla 3omroha sanatayn ladaya machakil katira ma3a zawjati wadaiman no9ariro tala9 ila ana 3ailatana tatadakhal litamna3a tala9 wa adafa aydan laysa laki danb fi koul ma yahdot machakili ma3a zajwati bada2at 9abla an nalta9i kanat fi3lan akbara sadma ata3arado laha fi tilka lahda fakarto fi kouli chay2 ana chaba walazalat lhayato amami walaysat ladaya 3ala9at sabi9a wa laysat ladaya khibra fi hada lmajal tasa2alto bidakhili kayfa saatamakano min atta3amol ma3a chakhss yafou9oni khibra layssa dalika fa9at bal kayfa yomkinoni an o3achira chakhss motazawij hada haram wakayfa data yawm a7rimo tilka lfatat latti la danba la min 3atf abiha wa a7rimo tilka zawja min zawjiha mada af3alo ya ilahi...........
talabto minho an yatrokani amchi lihali farafada wa a9na3ani an ab9a linatahadata fi hada lmawdou3 .takalamna moutawalan fi hada lmawdou watafa9na akhiran ma3an bi intidari hossoulihi 3ala tala9 .......ba3da mourour chhour 3ala ta3arofina ahssasto ani ohiboho min a3ma9i 9albi inaho chakhson fi almoustawa yo3amiloni jaydan waya7ki li asraraho alati la ta3lamoha hata zawjatoho 3ichna la7adat la yomkinoni an anssaha tawala 3omri o9simo anni lam a3rif yawman ma3na lhob ila ma3aho ma3aho fata7to 3ayni 3ala donya wa3araft ma3na an takouna hayatoka mortabita bi chakhss wala yomkinoka l3aycho min dounih,3arafani 3ala adounia wa3ala tari9at ta3amol ma3a machakiliha howa insanon wa3i wa 3alimon bi donnia 3ayara nadrati lilhayat konto daiman moutachaima,khaifa,khajoula, lam akon a3rifo chaiane 3an dounia ma3aho ta3alamto koula chay2 ta3alamto kayfa akouno 9awiya,lam a3od akhaf,lam a3od akhjalo mina lkalam ma3a nass ........3alamani kola chay2 jamil....
odakiroho daiman anaho moutazawij waladayhi tifla li ana hada lmawdou3 yachghalo tafkiri daiman wa ach3oro anaho la yohibo an odakiraho bidalik.orido an odif anani la orido laho machakil wa a9oumo daiman bifi3li mayatloboho mini lianani ohiboho bijnoun wanalta9i daiman mata yacha2 li kay la afrida 3alayhi nafssi lihada fanahno lam na3od nalta9i katiran .
orido ra2yakom bi3ala9ati ma3a hada chakhss wa2orido nassai7

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